Today on my walk I was flooded with memories…It is very seldom that in my prayer time, I reminisce on the past. I’m usually thanking God, praying for the kids, my husband, my friends, family, situations and so on. Today was so different. Maybe it was because it was 9am and Jax woke up every 2 hrs again last night, who knows, but for some reason my thoughts replayed different (crucial) moments of my life.
Vivid memories of times where I was confused, desperate and honestly doubtful. When my belief was wavering because I couldn’t tangibly see Him, or understand how He would “turn” my situation around. My journey through discovering my purpose, my call and myself had started to blur together and I wanted so badly to say “forget it, I’m out”. I was taken down memory lane and ended up at the time when my husband told me he was leaving his job –the first time (and I was pregnant with number 2) Oh and then it got me thinking about when he did that again (pregnant with number 3). Oh Yes, I was reminded of all those moments AND the emotions that came with them. All the areas where I openly couldn’t hide my disappointment in where my life was…where I had been led and at that crossroad where I needed to choose to continue or run as fast as I could. (Obviously, I continued) During this instant replay of the past 10 years of my life with Christ, I fell in love with Jesus all over again.
This past Sunday the “Secret Place” was talked about. Today, God reminded me of why going to that secret place is so important. Those memories that replayed on my walk today are my treasures and were hidden there. They are my evidence that God is who He says He is. They are my unique blueprints. This scripture is one that I recited today over and over again, because it is truly in the secret place where I met Jesus, fall in love with him (again and again) and where I continue to be in awe of His greatness.
“He that dwelleth in the secret place of the most High shall abide under the shadow of the Almighty.2 I will say of the Lord, He is my refuge and my fortress: my God; in him will I trust.3 Surely he shall deliver thee from the snare of the fowler, and from the noisome pestilence.4 He shall cover thee with his feathers, and under his wings shalt thou trust: his truth shall be thy shield and buckler.”
I challenge you to remember when you first fell in love with Jesus. Visit those memories where God showed up. Hold on to them, guard them and remember that God was, is and is STILL enough.